New Year - New Beginning.

New Year, it always has a new beginning, well for most people.
It feels like re-birth, something so astonishing. A new start that will push everything in the past. People usually use New Year as a day to get rid of everything unpleasant in their lives, they leave it in the past. They even give or seek for forgiveness.
I know I have left the past behind, in fact it is now completely out of my mind. I won't miss 2009, it did me no good. It was all filled with so many complications, My mind was clouded with unpleasant thoughts all the time. It was like I was being haunted, not letting happiness appear in my sight, living in darkness. There was no light, even if I saw light I would approach it slowly and it would get dimmer and dimmer by each step I took, until it faded, completely. I let the good things slip through my fingers each and every time, I gave up on things I shouldn't have, I hurt people I shouldn't have.

This year though, I have a feeling it will be different. Because I began not caring about what wanted to bring me down, I began stronger. Now I have reclaimed my happiness and I feel whole again. I may not have what I really wanted, but I have what I need. I have realised that sometimes you can't get what you want, you have to get what you need.
I have what I need, although if It doesn't sutisfy me 100%. I am still 100% Happy.

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