I sat there today, listening to the man with the black suit and black tie, talking about whatever he was talking about.
He was great at everything he was saying, blurring words, digging them into our minds, showing us that what we are doing is wrong.
But that's not the point.
He mentioned it, mentioned the feeling, the comittment.
I found myself gasping for breath, I tried looking for what was eating me from the inside.
It was the feeling, the feeling I had when you were around.
It came to me again, the pain was back. Drilling itself through my stomach.
A log started building itself in my throat, waiting for me to burst into tears.
But I knew better.
It took me a moment to recover, to push everything away, far away and focus on what was happening. I made myself think that this was just a lecture, making myself forget the pain, loss and the mistake I'd done. Snapping back to reality once again.
Although I saw you once again today. I hated it, you haven't changed one bit.
Same cold look into your eyes, as if you were looking right through my soul.
But I can't forget it, you were everything I needed and I couldn't ever have.
x.
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