Shaken Up.

I did it again.
Dragged myself to the pits of hell.
I've lost control. My head feels heavy.
I'm screaming so loud, but the words just wont come out.
The screams fade, into the world of silence.
I need you, to need me.
I need stability and consistence.
Pull me tightly, security and peace.
I'm so exhausted, I need to let go.
I'm breathing heavily, air like knives in my lungs.
The hopes and dreams are torn to pieces. They become dull, very hard to see.
I need change. I need happiness.
I'm making this everything and you nothing.
It will make you reminisce.
Falling like autumn leaves, The fall and death.
But I'll regain my conscious. Sooner or later.
One after the other, they come and go. Yet none of them knows anything.
They don't know. They try, but they still don't know.
My mind, My thoughts. No more, No less.