Pull me out from inside.

I will never, ever forget about you.
Time passes and it will continue passing.
But you never will.
You'll remain there and it will kill me.
You have believed my lies and I'm glad about that.
Why?, because you will never be able to handle the truth. You will think differently.
I wrote you a letter with all my thoughts and feelings. It's a shame that you'll never see it.
I guess i'll leave you as a memory in my mind, a memory that will haunt.
I don't care about the pain anymore, I'm used to it. But I hate how I let it control me sometimes.
I broke things, things that are easy to break, I saw them as being weaker and breaking them felt good.
Everyones sick of me for not running or leaving or forgeting about this. But honestly not many people could understand what's going on. After all their my thoughts not theirs.
I'm afraid now, afraid if you will remain forever, afraid that I would like to re-claim you in a different person.
I even make it sound so bad lol. But really, really now.
This is a catastrophe.