One last night.

I'm not sure what to expect. And I don't know if I should prepare myself, for what's about to happen. Everything will end, and restart on Monday.I saw you tonight. And I remembered. I remembered everything. Everything I tried forgetting, for the past 4 years. I thought that maybe...just maybe I could handle it. After everything I put myself through. Extending myself into infinite limits, to find a way, in replacing you. It's very hard. I can't keep myself occupied. I thought I finally had what I needed. But what I needed, destroyed me still. And didn't heal the wounds that had already been created by you. Well not entirely. The same chills run down my spine, every time I see you. I don't know, if I'll ever forget you. But I like the feeling, even though I don't want to admit it. I like the rush of adrenaline, my whole body turning into ice, and that puzzled expression on my face, where my brown eyes turn into solid black. As if I'm horrified. As if I'm seeing something, I prayed to never see.