Twilight.

This to me, seems to be sheer perfection.
Yet again I find myself biting on my lips and making them bleed.
I don't seem to quite understand the meaning of it all.
I don't know how to put the puzzle back together, because I fear what the complete outcome might be.
What if this image depicts my future and who I'll be?
I fear too many things and I find myself shattering my world over and over again.
I don't believe that something good, could ever happen to me. And if it ever does, I'll ruin it because of my doubts. I feel as if I'm not good enough for anything, well not anything, but I'm just not good at holding my world together. It's as if I'm cursed. I can't put things back to where they belong.
I fear that I eventually lose what I love. I fear that I'll always be the one left behind. I fear that I won't be accepted for who I am. I have way too many flaws on my shoulders and it's hard for me to hide my emptiness, because you can't really hide what's not there.
I just fear being given up on over and over again.

Moonlight.

I try reaching as far as I possibly can.
I want the stars, I want the moon.
I want the light, to get rid of this darkness.
They left me in the darkness, so darkness I became.
This perfection, it's untouchable.
It smiles at me as I reach out for it, and yet, as I try to hold it, it slips right through my fingers. Leaving white smoke behind. Leaving me behind.
Without it I have nothing. I lose myself, I'm insane.
I take a few steps, but I can see nothing in this darkness.
I feel it though, it's around me. I hear the silence screaming.
I'll just fall asleep, drift into it's shadow, in this beautiful twilight.
Keep me safe, you will be mine one day.
I can see it smiling at me as I reach out for it.
You will be my moonlight. I'll steal you away.