Greatness

I don't think that I say this enough but I would truly like to thank all the people who are there for me in times when I'm in need. I would like to dedicate this to anyone who's helped me and been there for me in any sort of way or form. No words will ever measure to the immensity of thanks that I hold for those people in my heart. I do struggle quite a lot but if I had no one, then I would truly feel alone. I value people’s friendships and kindness more than anything in this world. I try my best to always be honest and treat them with the kindness they deserve. I have seen people come and go, people who have become no longer worthy of my time and people who have let distance and time get in between friendship. For those who have remained however, I would like to deeply thank through this blog. I don't know how I would have managed without any of you. Thank you.

R U OK?

I feel so god damn broken and Ive been finding it very hard to cope lately. I try so hard to be good and to meet everyone's expectations so I don't make anyone unhappy, but I find myself being isolated at the same time. I don't know how many more times I'm going to have sleepless nights with silent cries. I feel like I have no one and everything is just empty. Some of you might not like this blog because of how depressive it is, but this is me and I'm not okay. I haven't been for a long time. I feel like everything that makes me happy will just soon fade because I just don't deserve it. I don't know if I push people away from me, or they just decide to leave because i'll never be good enough for them.