R U OK?

I feel so god damn broken and Ive been finding it very hard to cope lately. I try so hard to be good and to meet everyone's expectations so I don't make anyone unhappy, but I find myself being isolated at the same time. I don't know how many more times I'm going to have sleepless nights with silent cries. I feel like I have no one and everything is just empty. Some of you might not like this blog because of how depressive it is, but this is me and I'm not okay. I haven't been for a long time. I feel like everything that makes me happy will just soon fade because I just don't deserve it. I don't know if I push people away from me, or they just decide to leave because i'll never be good enough for them.