Monday, October 31, 2011

Death

I fell apart before my eyes again. This time I didn’t know it was coming, but I knew it was close. My limbs hurt, I felt a faint pain dwelling in my stomach, as if the gashes were beginning to open up again. How could this happen though, I had repaired myself, I held my ground all the time. Every time I take a breath I gag, I don't know why, I don’t know when. Everything just hurts, soon everything will turn into numbness and the dullness will return, my biggest fear will return. Ill be drowning in the same sea again. However maybe this time it will be easier, since I’m so used to the emptiness, I just hope I haven’t forgotten, well not completely. I’m being destroyed without even realizing it.