From heaven to hell

You used to say things like "You are my everything", "what my life consists of". Now nothing feels like that anymore. I don't know how it came to this, I no longer feel like your princess. Just an extra. Everything I do or say is instantly an attack towards you, an objection or a crime. Maybe, just maybe if you weren't being so distant, everything would be perfectly fine. You used to touch me in a different way, you used to look at me in a different way, smile and laugh with me. Agree with me on most things, hold my hand and tell me you liked it. You used to take away my emptiness and fill my life with colour. None of that happens now. I am contantly empty, lonely and I have no way of expressing that but in tears. Because expressing that now is no longer an option because everything is misunderstood. I miss you, I miss everything. I'm too afraid to say it though. You take things and throw them back at me, giving nothing in return. Everything seems far away, everything is becoming more wrong as time passes by. I want to be happy and be with you. I want everything to go back to the way it used to be. The time where you actually gave a fuck about me.